Friday, March 06, 2009

Growing Up

I can't believe my little girl is growing up! She has only ever been my baby and now all of a sudden she is a toddler! I'm so proud of her growth, but I also feel sad to see her become more independent because I know that she is one step closer to going off to college.
Last Sunday Jane went to Nursery. (For those of you counting, it is 1 month early, but I have connections...don't tell...) I have been dreaming of this day for many, many months and was counting down the days until she could go. Scott and I are both very busy during church and we were excited to have Jane go to Nursery so we could focus more on the tasks we needed to accomplish. But as I was walking her to Nursery I was getting a little teary-eyed knowing that my little baby was big enough to be on her own (well, you know, along with 10 other kids and 2-3 adults). A few times during the hour and 45 minutes that she was "alone" I almost started crying again. And now, even as I write about it I'm tearing up. Is this normal?!? I even spied on her 2 times during that hour and 45 minutes, for about 5 minutes each, by looking through the tiny peepholes they have in all the Nursery doors. It was so cute to see her interact with other kids. I saw her chase a ball and have a boy steal it from her. Then she sat, defeated on the floor for a minute. That poor girl, she isn't used to standing up for herself. I don't fight over her toys with her at home. She has full domain being the oldest of 1. But this will make her stronger. And me.
I am going to be a wreck when she goes to kindergarten. Watch out for the water-works! "Man the pumps!"

7 comments:

Jentry said...

I didn't know that you came to watch her through the door. I'll have to make sure that I'm on my best behavior all the time. She did just great and I'm sure every week will be easier.

Sarah said...

Those are funny picturas. So when does toddlerhood start? 1 1/2? Being in nursery I think about Jane and I want to cry when I think about how some kids sometimes do mean stuff to other kids and it's really sad because I feel like Jane needs a little body guard. But at least she's kind of big - tall, thanks to Scott, so she probably won't get pushed around too easily.

Mirien said...

I felt that way, too, about nursery with Alyssa. She seemed so little and other kids seemed so big and pushy. But she didn't adjust too well in there without us (my fault??) so I remember staying in there for weeks until she was ready to be on her own. It's been a little easier with subsequent children. But, Alyssa is only 3 years away from college and now that's starting to seem way too close. Like you, I've worried about that since the day she was born.

Veronica Ernest said...

I didn't have a hard time when my kids went to nursery. But, Michael is a sunbeam now and I almost lost it his first day. I can't believe how big he is.

stephi k said...

I had a hard time getting Jameson to nursery. Dave and I took turns going for 6 months! Talk about over-protective. I just couldn't leave him screaming with strangers as I walked out the door. So I think you're doing pretty good. I can't believe how old Jane looks in some of those pictures!

Valarie said...

I can totally sympathize...it is hard and you are normal! You're also wise to recognize kindergarten will be hard - for you. :) How nice that you have peepholes in the doors, I wish ours did!

Jenny said...

I was the same way when I took Jaren the first, I don't know, ten times. I would peek in to make sure he was okay without me.

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